gears that grind will always grind

problem with working with slow machines is they allow you to think and start questioning why should you be doing this in the first place (for money)? why is this pain worth bearing (to provide)? what's the point if it will always be broken (because mastery comes from repetition and not achievement)?

so you begin to dream about a better place (where the machine is faster) and fantasize about how to get there (by coming up with an innovative new product).

but in truth, this is all wishful thinking while there's some suffering. once the weekend arrives and the mind disperses, everything is OK again.

or is it? maybe it's a good time to think about the things I don't like about my job. and about the things I do like. and of the things I don't like, which of them are really bad (policing users/colleagues) and which of them are because I'm not good at (training up colleagues). 

then maybe look again at my job and see what I can improve while doing it, and what will necessitate a change.