Through
Having a lot of trouble starting today.
Yesterday I went for a run. Unfortunately I hadn't decided to do it the night prior, so I didn't prepare things accordingly. Ended up taking too long to get ready and get out and ran 3 Km instead of the usual 5.
Not necessarily a bad thing. The weather has been very cold, in the high negatives, and when I came back I certainly felt cold damage to my lungs and throat. Nothing major, and I seem to be recovering.
I returned to work last week tired, but invigorated and motivated. The lack of meaningful interactions have started taking its toll. As I recovered physically I have become drained emotionally. I'm back to feeling despondent and easily distracted.
Losing a lot of time on platforms like Spotify and YouTube, concerning myself with researching bands instead of tackling the open work I have within hands.
Being very irresponsible, but again, it is very difficult to do progress without meaningful interactions. I become much more interested in distracting myself to make time go by unnoticed.
This also affects how the day feels to me. Disjointed and chaotic.
Again I must turn to myself and discipline myself. Focus on the end goal: clear the stack and start picking up a new skill that allows me to search for more interesting jobs.
Stay in it. This sucks, but true progress lies through it. Not around. Not before. Not over. Not under. Through.
Yesterday I went for a run. Unfortunately I hadn't decided to do it the night prior, so I didn't prepare things accordingly. Ended up taking too long to get ready and get out and ran 3 Km instead of the usual 5.
Not necessarily a bad thing. The weather has been very cold, in the high negatives, and when I came back I certainly felt cold damage to my lungs and throat. Nothing major, and I seem to be recovering.
I returned to work last week tired, but invigorated and motivated. The lack of meaningful interactions have started taking its toll. As I recovered physically I have become drained emotionally. I'm back to feeling despondent and easily distracted.
Losing a lot of time on platforms like Spotify and YouTube, concerning myself with researching bands instead of tackling the open work I have within hands.
Being very irresponsible, but again, it is very difficult to do progress without meaningful interactions. I become much more interested in distracting myself to make time go by unnoticed.
This also affects how the day feels to me. Disjointed and chaotic.
Again I must turn to myself and discipline myself. Focus on the end goal: clear the stack and start picking up a new skill that allows me to search for more interesting jobs.
Stay in it. This sucks, but true progress lies through it. Not around. Not before. Not over. Not under. Through.