Dissolving Pressure in Time
Friday the 13th.
People say it's a day for bad luck. I feel pretty good myself. Having adopted regular exercise, better task prioritisation and a more relaxed attitude, I've managed to bring myself to a happier place.
This all goes in tandem with being so happy with Anna. Being with her infuses me with a great golden energy, which in turn I channel to take the necessary actions to better my condition, which in turn improves the quality of the time I spend with her. It is most definitely a virtuous cycle.
Onwards to more pragmatic thoughts. Yesterday I managed to be more productive than I have been in weeks, if not months. I managed to concentrate deeply in the work, and meet the objectives, albeit small, that I have set to myself.
Speaking of the objectives. There's always this looming pressure that I'm not doing enough, being good enough, proactive enough. If I take it full on, it is paralysing. By putting some effort into viewing myself as a little less capable, with a little less potential and putting up objectives that are within reach, I can actually break that paralysis and get going.
It is ironic that by demanding a little less of me in the moment, I can do so much more. What I have been trying to do recently, and will keep trying to do moving forward, is to assign that pressure to be so much, to have so much personal potential realised, to assign it to the future, to the long term. I don't have to be what I demand of me right then and there. I have to stop, breathe and gently dissolve that pressure in time so that I can sustain the necessary discipline to actually achieve it.
People say it's a day for bad luck. I feel pretty good myself. Having adopted regular exercise, better task prioritisation and a more relaxed attitude, I've managed to bring myself to a happier place.
This all goes in tandem with being so happy with Anna. Being with her infuses me with a great golden energy, which in turn I channel to take the necessary actions to better my condition, which in turn improves the quality of the time I spend with her. It is most definitely a virtuous cycle.
Onwards to more pragmatic thoughts. Yesterday I managed to be more productive than I have been in weeks, if not months. I managed to concentrate deeply in the work, and meet the objectives, albeit small, that I have set to myself.
Speaking of the objectives. There's always this looming pressure that I'm not doing enough, being good enough, proactive enough. If I take it full on, it is paralysing. By putting some effort into viewing myself as a little less capable, with a little less potential and putting up objectives that are within reach, I can actually break that paralysis and get going.
It is ironic that by demanding a little less of me in the moment, I can do so much more. What I have been trying to do recently, and will keep trying to do moving forward, is to assign that pressure to be so much, to have so much personal potential realised, to assign it to the future, to the long term. I don't have to be what I demand of me right then and there. I have to stop, breathe and gently dissolve that pressure in time so that I can sustain the necessary discipline to actually achieve it.