Emotions 23-Oct-2023

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Am I chasing the wrong goal? Or am I just lazy?

I have to be brave to do my job. I am constantly moving towards the fear. I am living my fantasy of a hero facing a dragon. It's just the dragon is my insecurity regarding my knowledge. And even though it is straightforward to combat - just keep working and learning, everytime I advance I am reminded of how little I know.

I can do this. Bit by bit.

Time to go for a more primitive feeling. Figure this shit out, on my own, by myself. Fuck everyone else.


I saw something I did not understand. I cared not to be curious about it and chose to ignore it. Now I'm forced to face it, all because I refused my natural inclination to inquire. Don't be selective. Don't optimise. Always follow the light you cast.