Thoughts 10-Oct-2023

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I want to get in the mood and then stay in the mood.

Definitely blocking out my affairs completely from work aggravates anxiety.

I accept whatever mechanism I employ to get started with work, and to stay working, has an expiry date. Sometimes I will use a list of tasks, sometimes I will jump to a fire, sometimes I will use journal. That is OK.

I am working much better today. I believe I should take a little break now.

Had a little break, supposed to be 10 minutes, now at 40. Next time I'll try to push for lunch. Keep the machine going.

Why am I stuck watching a video I don't care much about? Because I don't want to get started. Because it's easy. Because I'm tired.

At around 15:23 my brain fog seems to be kicking. I'm struggling with the more rudimentary tasks.

I feel like the rest of the afternoon was a mixed bag.